One afternoon, after a summer workout at St. Johns, a couple of us had accepted Garvey's offer of a ride home. On the way Garvey said he needed to stop by his place for something, and when we got there he invited us in for something cold to drink. When we finally settled in, the three of us were sitting in Garvey's office. It was upstairs in the room adjacent to the bedroom. He was sitting across the room, leaning back in his desk chair, gritting his teeth, lips pulled back tight in a grimace, as he picks at his psoriasis-flaked scalp. He was talking to me and the other player, or I should say ex-player because this guy was probably nineteen at the time. I knew him. I recognized him from years at the St. Johns gym. He had gone on to play in high school, and now some college ball. Garvey held a tumbler containing a cola on ice, while the other, older, kid had a beer and I had a Fresca. As we sat there eating Snyder's hard sourdough pretzels with big chunks of swiss cheese, I noticed the way Garvey was sitting. He had leaned back so that he could use his stomach as a shelf, and that was where his pretzel and cheese rested. He kept his drink in hand and he balanced it on the end of the arm of his chair, but the pretzel and cheese sat on his belly.
We, rather they, were discussing the upcoming St. Johns season. Actually, Garvey was expounding on what he thought the future would hold. The young guy generally just nodded his agreement or added a one-liner agreeing with whatever Garvey had just said. No mistake about it, Garvey had granted this audience and he would dictate the conversation and the conclusions. His feeling seemed to be that it could truly be an exceptional year. The pieces were pretty much in place. Soandso needed to grow a few more inches, and Whatshisname needed to work on his outside shot, but generally things looked good. His spirits were upbeat. He even commented that with a little luck, hard work, and increased grit, I could see limited action. I could play a role. Of course I would have to prove myself more valuable than this one other guy who was older, stronger, and more experienced than me but, he said, there existed a chance. The team still needed work and there remained a lot of fine tuning to be done before next season. The long summer could give me the time I needed to get myself ready. The time to improve myself and jockey for some playing time. He said I had to be ready, because I was going to get my chance, and when the time came, I had better make the most of it because I might not get another. I got the message. Carpe diem, Jack, seize the day.
Garvey's tone, as I have noted, was upbeat and I was reveling in the fact that he was including me in his plans for next season. And in front of this older guy no less. I openly beamed as he went on about the possibilities. I couldn't keep the pride from rushing over my entire face. Every feature bursting. To hear him talking about me this way! To hear him talk about me successfully accomplishing my dream. I could not keep the images of this future out of my head. It was enough to make me giddy. I was in heaven. My heaven. St. John heaven. Garvey heaven.
When I came back to the conversation, they were talking about the summer. Garvey joked about girls and the beach, to the older guy. He admonished him to be sure he at least took a good book to read while he worked on his tan. They laughed that while I was still too young to appreciate the girls, I would know soon enough. With regards to basketball, Garvey said he would be available, and so would the facilities at St.Johns and Mercyhurst, but we would have to call him and make the arrangements. Call other guys, too, if we wanted, but make arrangements to come alone if we wanted to work on specific aspects of our game. It sounded OK to me until he talked about my need to grow taller, and get stronger and quicker. These words struck a familiar chord. Immediately, I understood the implications. The road to this happy future passed through Garvey's bedroom, and more "treatment". Somehow, the sunny sky surrounding my basketball future just moments ago, began to grow ominous and overcast.
I had an uneasy feeling. I felt like like what I wanted was within reach, and at the same time I wasn't sure that I wanted to do what it would take to finally get it. I worked hard. I felt I deserved a shot. I didn't want any more "treatment" sessions but I wanted to be a better player. Garvey said he could help with that. I believed that I needed to show him I wanted to get better. If I had any hopes of playing I had to prove to him that I was serious. That I was doing everything I could to improve my game. To impress him. To get him to play me instead of that other kid. To prove that I wanted it more than that other kid. To show that I was more deserving than that other kid. So I called and arranged for practices. I called to arrange for treatment sessions. I put them off for as long as I thought I could before he would think I was being negligent, then I would call. I wanted to play. He was the coach. He made the decisions. I wanted to do everything I could to impress upon him how hard I wanted this, and how hard I was willing to work. I wanted to impress him. So, after a little less than a week, I called.
Next: Summer sessions
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